No pity plzz!!

Well yeah. I am weird. So?? There is some glitch in the way my brain was hardwired. I seem to hate it when people do the consolation act and say "It will be alright", " Things will be ok "..blah blah and blah.I am not being cynical.I am just being honest.Isn't it excruciatingly painful to hear those words and even worse, that look of pity!!!Goddddd

My friend asks me, "Err...What do you expect people to tell you then? Normal human reaction would be to say "It will be alright", " Things will be ok "..blah blah and blah..You are being unreasonable"

The above..Truth unadulterated again.But, remember.I am weird. I can't take pity.

Somtimes silence means so much more than words.

9 to 6.45..five days a week.

I have never been able to decide wht i like better. Work or no work?? No..I am not a workaholic..I am not a chronic cribber either.But then,I hate it wen I have to sit idle the whole day and clock in 9 hrs just bcoz of company policies. Well, company policies were sure made for a reason (arent they all made for some reason!! and to top it up, there are always people clocking wen u came in and wen u left the office right to the millisecond. How does it even matter to them? I dunno..Probably they are adding spice to their 'busy' day this way.

When I ask myself, wht would I do, if I dint have to clock in those wrteched hrs everyday.Just stay around till I have work. And then call it a day when there is no work to do, and not even the anticipation ( or hope if I cud call it tht) that work is on the way.Well, to start with..
A book to read is certainly the first option
Taking up long forgotten hobbies ( which the 9 to 6.45 schedule helped in burying too)
I am sure I can come up with more like this.

But yeah. I guesss, to summarise it all.It would just be the feeling that people respect my time. And moreover I respect it and have the freedom to decide wht i want to do with every moment of it.
As usual, it all comes down to be in control of your own life, doesnt it!!

Thought for the day!!

Loved this thought

There is nothing good or bad in this world, but thinking makes it so.
What people call congestion in a bus, becomes atmosphere in a disco!!!

Horsocope : A Deeper motive perhaps!!

All this started with a fwd mail saying Horoscopes 2009..I told myself - "Hey!!!I dont believe in horoscopes. My life is my decision..Nothing else rules it..No stars..no planets". So what was the fate of that mail. Shift+Del??Of course not..After forwarding the mail to a few friends (oh yeah..first involuntary reaction of a "on bench" software employee ) , I skip directly to Gemini to read the course my life would be taking according to the planets, and yeah..not to forget ..the stars too.

Well, I am a happy person now..All nice things said in the Gemini column of the horoscope..a brilliant year ahead..Phew!!gives me such a relief..but hey..I dont believe in horoscopes right.

All said and done..probably , there is no harm in believing the good things said there.They give you hope.A strength to get past bleak times. A few words of hope, written by some XYZ, probably to increase sales of a newspaper/magazine, but yeah..they give you a ray of hope neverthless.

Thats the way I end up thinking of God too..Ok..before anyone raises their eyebrows..I am no atheist.I believe in God more or less the same way as I believe in horoscopes. Yeah..interestingly there is an analogy. Before a difficult test, or after a terrible one, my faith in Him strengthens. But more in the way that, believing He is there, gives me a hope that things will be alright.Life that sucks presently will get better. I dont chant prayer, but just saying "GODDDD" helps at times.Its probabaly escapism, if I were to be too hard on myself.I want the burden off my shoulder.No mortal being would take it.So what do I do. Put it on God, the Almighty.

Well..its sound sort of philosophical..but hey..give it a break..anything and everything abt God isnt philosophical. Probably all this was just to say that things often might mean just more than they seem to be saying explicitly.Horoscopes might have started off just to make things ahead look brighter for as its said " Hope is like the sun.It casts the shadow of your burdens behind you". And the Creator is the mighty hand that weilds this powerful tool of Hope.

Confused??Curious??

I always wanted to be a journalist..nope..thats too much travel and buzz..
I wanted to be a Doctor..oh no!! hospitals...
I wanted to be a artist..well..lets not talk abt my hand and eye co ordination levels at all..its a very "not welcome to talk abt" topic..
Living in a society where the very idea of small talk means "What do you want to be in life?" [:grr] or "So, what do you want to do next"...my answer has always been..well..not much of an answer than a confused look and after turning round..of course a "Duh!!"
But when I come to think of it now, how does a person realise his/her passion.Other than the born brilliante of course..u see my point??no..Well..See..I like Biology..fine..it interests me more than say... Thermodynamics..but is that my passion??
Err.. I feel the confused look surfacing again..
Or is it like Browning saying "Two roads diverged in the yellow woods..And sorry I could not travel both..."
Its just the curosity..What if I had been something else?? The curiosity remains and the confusion prevails..forever!!

The Beginning

Yet another attempt to kill boredom and I turn to blogging!! After trying all the usual techniques a "on business wait"(read bench) software engineer can turn to..like reading fwded mails with absolutely no new or interesting content, yet indulging in the next in line passtime of fwding those fwd msgs to a few more same state souls, taking a coffee break to get refuelled for the gruelling task of solving puzzles, cribbing abt how you crave for work and curse the industry for being in such a bad shape at precisely the same time that you passed out of college. Well..here's where I hope to find peace and solace..Thts the beginning and I dont see the road ahead clearly, but at least, I dont see the end to this journey either :)